bowling & rant

Not in the best of moods right now. In fact i feel incredibly fucked up. Cause of family. Cried in the bath. Wearing a mask right now in an attempt to hide the puffy face. It's effective! I dont even have to talk to my mum. Yay.

Charlotte, Jai, liqian and I went back to BPS today to collect our certs/testimonials and to do some visiting.  Sadly, i didn't see everyone i wanted to visit :( for example, Jane Tan, and other teachers. And the dancers!! I only met some .

Went to compasspoint. Ate burgerking while charlotte went to the bank with her mum. Headed to Kovan to play bowling at superbowl after that. Met up with Yvonne and Shanette there. I have a ton of bowling gifs. I had more, but my phone auto deleted some. My thumb fucking hurts from bowling. My nail chipped off totally.

the beautifully chipped nail.

Results of game 1.

That's all. I'm too pissed to do anything...

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The first thing my mum said when i came home was, "Shorts getting shorter, huh?" which directly translates into slut in my book. When will you see that i am NOT a slut? That i rarely wear revealing clothes like how the real sluts do? When will you see that i actually cringe at sluts that weat their slutty clothes? Because its my auto reaction?
I AM NOT SLUT. I'm sure you've seen sluts when you go to work. HOW AM I ANYTHING LIKE THAT? TELL ME. Because i dont see myself as slutty or anything near that. #bitchplease I AM SO CONSERVATIVE, and dont think you can forget about all those times when i've told you how insecure i was to my body. If i am insecure about myself why the fuck would i show so much of my body to fucking disgusting and perverted strangers?!!?

i rarely wear sleeveless tops.
i rarely wear skirts. (i only have one)
when my shorts ride up, i feel fucking uncomfortable.
i bring a jacket out with me 70% of the time.
i do not wear off shoulder tops.
i feel fucking exposed when my short's neck hole is too big.
i feel paranoid when i wear makeup out.
i am disgusted by (real) men. disgusted when the stare at me too long.

i dare you to call me slutty, compare to those real sluts that wear miniskirts in line with cb, that will expose their butts and panties when only sightly bent over.
sluts that wear spaghetti straps revealing their (most probably) neon colored bra.
crop tops that show belly piercing or (even worse,) tattoos.
hot shorts with their ass spilling out at the back.
that flirt 24/7.
that let men/boys touch them wherever.

How can you compare me those?
Weren't you the one that said WE SHOULDN'T COMPARE? fly.