lazycrazy

Should I sleep now? --3:46AM
Its rare that I stay up this late. My eyes are dying srsly.

The world is foggy outside my window. The mist lies low, obscuring the bottom half of the buildings far away. You won't even be able to make out the outline of the buildings.

Word just got out that Jin will be suspended indefinitely and his April-may tour has been cancelled. Costs incurred will be fully paid by Jin, and you know just how much you have to compensate if you cancel an arena booking. Some millions (yen, thank god). Please don't suck so much of his money. I didnt really like his hobo era. Thank you Jimusho. I wonder how Warner feels.

Have been reading Colors Of The Heart by skai since 10 till now. That's almost 6 hours babies. And I'm only half done. I was mentally prepared for tears, but not yet I guess. Got ma towel handy yo.

G texted me some hours ago. One or two, I forgot. It was sudden and unexpected. Hmmmm I think someone told her to text me. Oh G idk what to say- goodluck, get well soon, jiayou, I dunno, neither seem to fit the context. But this one- you must MUST study hard k. Don't let it interfere with studies. And don't look down on yourself.

It's 3:54AM. I guess with Jin's suspension my wallet will be less tortured. I can save for traveling.

That is, if i even have any money coming to me. I need to get high pocket money for poly :(

My bed is comfortable. I was lying on my stomach and I just curled to my side. It's warm. It's soft.
An hour ago I was freezing out of nerve/cold sweat/anxiety/excitement/fear/surprise and my legs were freezing. I got warm later. Maybe it's because I stuffed my toes under the pillow. Maybe I wasn't feeling those feelings anymore. Anyway.

You know the saying, 'When you can't decide what to do, flip a coin; not because it can decide for you, but because in the split-second when it is in the air, you will know what you are hoping for.'
Well tbh it is half bullshit because personally no one can feel think then decide in a split-second. But I experienced something like that. It wasn't a coin, and it wasn't a split second. The theory is okay. Cuz your inner thoughts will just pop up.

My toes are cold again, I have to go back to the feet pillow.