On the nap home just now I finally formed my problems into a sentence. The entire thought has been lingering a bit in me everyday.
I am obviously too self conscious to love, too insecure. Always thinking about what others think of me.
When I don't wear my eyelid glue I can't bring myself to keep eye contact with someone I'm not so familiar with. Because when I do for too long I start to think 'what are they thinking of my eyes' 'oh no are they looking at my slack lids' 'agh don't let them see' *looks away*
I'm messed up. I have so many other insecurities about my body too I haven't been able to let go and fully enjoy what a relationship is supposed to feel like.
Maybe I'm too conservative. Maybe I should dress sluttier and be more confident
Except I can't
It's a childhood anchor embedded
EDIT: I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THIS, BUT BIRTHDAY KISS FROM SHAWN WAS SO AWWWWWWWWW :'D
Everyone's insecure abt their body. I am, too :( Idk if you've noticed but I can't maintain more than 5 seconds eye contact with someone, cuz i'm scared that they'd see my flaws ahaha. But anyway, just wear what you like la! Don't worry so much abt what those niggers think becuz THEY DON'T CARE. :P N o o n e c a r e s ~ Hehe kidding. Just wear what you're comfortable in laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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