i'm a sad person in and out

19march13 11:29

My body is really weak now. My stomach is weak as shit, i can't even lift my legs up high. Or crouch as much as I want to.

Menses cramps was really bad yesterday and my fever shot up today. 

Chocolates, bananas and milk are my natural (and super effective) laxatives. Caffeine has a super power over me- if i drink a cup at 2pm i'd only fall asleep at 4am.

There are plugs all over my body.

^ Ew that was disgusting to type. I don't want to come to terms with something like that but….. Well skin is full of pores. And i'm too sick to consider a bath. I hope i can unclog pores with a good bath soon.

I missed Japanese class today :( i was really looking forward to it man, we were gonna make onigiri in class. We'd be taught how to in japanese. God damn it i hate being sick :(

I haven't been sick in a long time. I don't remember being sick during poly, so maybe it's been a year. It's hilarious looking at such a sad, lethargic and blank face framed in pink and grey hair, hahahhaha.

Well whatever. I need to do soothing activities.

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My stomach is like???? Marinating in shit????? It feels so bad??????????????

I suddenly lost the meaning in my life again at about an hour ago.

Manda said i should read books to fill the gap inside me (that evaporated in 1 minute)

I thought i could sew something

i never get around sewing anything though