lazycrazy

I like being honest and straightforward and truthful and blunt and i also like hurting myself and sometimes i like hurting people too but it's only ever physical

so just now i tried counting, and i think i have broken 6 people's hearts before. No, maybe 7. And these 7 are the severe kinds like if i had to count those one-sentence-heart-kills the number'd be past 40

lovely




only the people who understand my inside or have thick skins or strong hearts like me can survive being near me

i think i am pms-ing or something.......... last night i got angry at the chatty ppl in class and trishna and all. I am so sorry hahahha thinking back about it it was kinda trivial and dumb but maybe it's the assignments' stress that got to me. I know everyone's got tons of work to do and they were still reminiscing about primary school life like GURRRRLLLL DO THAT AT A KIKI lolol. But if i could go back to time i would've still told trishy that i was angry like i kenot keep inside me one

it's like a dominate trait of me to do this i still can remember my lasalle audition cum interview
do u guys rmb? the interviewer asked why i didn't finish this particular artwork and i went straight into a loooong paragraph at how lazy i am and how low my stamina for art is, because it's usually the newness that i like, i don't like focusing on one piece very long, and this was what my art teacher told me and i found it so true and so i said it to the interviewer.

naturally my other nervous friends in the group said i shouldn't have said it and then i stoned there for a while then just said 'nevermind la hahahha if they dont want me because of my bad points im ok with it what'

i'm going to bring myself to my destruction!!!!! because i cant be like that in the adult world!! i have to sell my self, sell my skills and pretend i am the person everyone wants to hire11!!! when i'm really not that all-rounded!!!!! wheeeee!!!!


gon be up and down but it's all in the name of fun so don't lose to life by killing yourself