O' levels

50 DAY CHALLENGE, NO. 2 Write whatever it is in your head right now.
I can foresee this being a long wordy post. If it isn't, ALL HAIL THE 'GOD OF LAZINESS'.
Not sure if you'd actually bother to read but... Please do? EYE OPENING EXPERIENCE. SEE THINGS FROM MY POINT OF VIEW.... In my shoes. LOL.

As you can see from the title.. it's gonna be about my O levels!
I studied hard for it! And it was real studying, not some slipshod work. I also got tuition classes, which helped me a lot.

I got L1R4 of 13!
WOOHOO! I was aiming 11 because 11 is Tegoshi's birthday and my favourite number!
I'm real happy with my 13 because it becomes 11 after using CCA points to minus! Shiok ah, i got my goal. Sighs out of happiness. Haha.



Clique and I went for BK at AMKhub for brunch before heading back to BPS. It was awkward wearing the uniform after such a long time of leaving it in the closet. You know? That feeling of unfamiliarity from the cloth? Yet it's somewhat comfortable because you've been wearing it 24/7, 6 days a week, months before the Os. Yeah, 6 days a week! I had saturday classes for maths! Surprisingly, the uniform still fit quite snugly on me.. Sigh. WHY AM I NOT GROWING....

WIthout uni yet. Just skirt.

On the bus to BPS, i met Brian, the only online friend that i met before :D he was sitting in front of me. Been a while since we last met! Nice hair, as always. I like his hairstyles man. The one he had when we first met was the best! ^^

Reaching BPS was a heart jittering journey man. We went in by the longer way because the passageway was locked. Walked through the canteen and into the foyer. I saw many unfamiliar faces at the canteen..... Sigh. Well at least our Clique's usual table was occupied by people we knew ^^ (it's like.... you know, you must pass down your possessions to juniors you actually know?! not random strangers!)

Headed into the detention center's toilet and bumped into Megan, Kimiko, and Jocelyn :D megan screamed at me before i could even register it in my mind! :@ HAHAHAHHAHA CRAZY HORMONES?! <333 hugged kimono and my forearm touched her hair. Kena stained black because she sprayed her hair black.
A lot of people dyed their hair and needed to hide it from teachers. We heard that students with dyed hair wouldn't be able to collect results, SO of course, being the scaredy cat singaporeans we are.. haha. Went ahead to spray Shanette's and Amanda's hair.
(I didn't dye my hair brown, if you were wondering. the last time i dyed it, i used black.)

After that i went out and answered a call (my mum) and turns out she's like, right in front of me. HAHAHAHHA. The few days before today she has been asking me whether i want her to come with me to school anot. Last night i said dont need, but now look who's standing in front of me in school......

Went to the general office to recieve my Good Progress Award and cheque. It's my last year of being able to collect that cheque, and i made it! Woohoo.

Stepped out and saw Liqian, Charlotte and Amanda talking to Jane Tan. Oh my god.
She looks pissed leh. She isn't in her usual flowery mood leh. She looks angry leh.
Why why why. I stepped into the conversation circle.
Turns out that in Art class, there's only one A and like about 9 C6s. DEFUG? 9 C6s LEH. How is that possible?! Teacher predicted that this year's batch will do quite well! Better than the past year too!! Where. Is. The. Logic.
She tells me that i got B3. Hmmm. It doesn't register after i walk away.

We go up to the hall, mother tagging along behind.
She gets misleaded once we exit the staircase.
Why how can my mum follow another person thinking that he/she is her daughter?! LOGIC?! LOL.

Separates with clique in the hall. I'm from a different class from all of them, boohoo! Leads mum to the seating area.
*sits with friends in 4E4*
"Sit according to O level index number!!!!" Fine lah, haiyoyo. While Mr. Va(r)nan starts his presentation, KKM walks down our class dropping giving us poly brochures. Sigh. Why he still so unfriendly? At the foyer I wave to him he pretend to never see. WHY. WHY. I hope i wont be shy to strangers as much as him... ._.

Anyway, I am the second to receive my results in 4E4. When Wan Ting go take hers, i felt like i was waiting for my turn FOR ORAL. LOL it's similar to that feeling!! Just that the atmosphere gets more lax as time goes by. WanTing finishes and i go up to take.. my results....

"You did wonderfully well. *straight, indifferent face*"
*Takes the papers suspiciously*
"Take any of these poly booklets if you want them."
*Tries to read the titles upside down, looking for design and media etc*
"Ok! Bye."

*wonderfully well rings in my head while i walk back to my seat on the floor.*
I am afraid to flip the papers. The results slip is placed behind a sealed paper.
I flip.
I see all As and Bs............ DEFUG? Really ah? Sure not? Serious? Really? No lah.

*Looks to the other column*
"Two.. Four.. Two.. Two.. Three"
Me thinks: "Uhhh all in words wan.. Uhhhh looks okay lah since it's A and B hor? Uhhhhhh need add up....... Uhhhhhhg cannot count.....Four is.... Humanities. Hmmmm. Okay.....my humanities weak anyway........"

I do not realize anything. My body and heart is numb, like it's shielded by a metallic shield. Whatever that comes at me will be, and i would not be swayed by it.


Megan asks me how much i got, and I say i dont know because i can't count.
I can't count. My maths? Lol? A2 and cannot count. Mind block maximum, i tell you. No registering. No joke.


I "flutter" across to my clique at E3 after exchanging a glance with Yvonne. Who 'called' me there, technically. "flutter", as my mum calls it. I momentarily forget about my mum's existence, actually.

I spend a LOT of time with my clique before going to her. Unfilial much. Haha.

I spend the day wiping a few tears, consuming sweet and laughing. Not everyone in my clique did well, so we wallowed in our emotions and remain in the hall for quite some time. Many people left and we're still sitting around.
We sober up and start thinking straight. Planning.

I hang with my mum for a while while some were still crying. I told myself i wouldn't cry, unless i got a single digit, or unless i got more than 17. Gosh, my life would be fucked if i got 17.. 
I tell my mum how much i got after counting my points with clique(or was it alone at E4? Can't remember).
SHE CRIES. DAFUG.
She must have been very expectant of me huh?! Can't blame her, tuition fees were expensive.
Yeah then she starts texting and calling, you know, typical woman things. Gossip fodder i have become. Oh well. She proud can liao hhahaha.

I go back to clique. Some results are revealed. Go back to mum. Hang a bit. Has a whatsapp conversation with my aunt. Flutters back to clique. Some are crying, some are in the depths of emo-ness.

There's nothing much i can do, really. It's well known that "you did your best" or "dont sad lah" or "its okay lah" are NOT GOOD COMFORTING LINES. So yeah, with those thrown out of the window, there's nothing i can think of that are even the least, comforting. I just sit back. Lend a shoulder to yvonne. I wiped a tear of hers because her face was smack in front of me. Easy. But this kind of action also not comforting one.
Ah, but yvonne recovers fast. Nothing to worry about there. Charlotte is the one! But luckily today she wasn't TOO distraught at the end. Must be cause i was around.


Some people's actions are absolutely thoughtless. I can never understand what even spurs you to do such things. It seems inhumane, really.


Sigh.
The day is so full. So full of so many emotions. Anger, stress, sadness, joy, elation, confusion, fear, worry and all.
Sigh.
Too much for one day. Lucky can tahan sia! If not i would have gone home right after results.

Clique minus yvonne went to J8. Yvonne went on Mary's parent's car. Probably went home. Probably okay by now? :)
Had gong cha and loitered around at the free space on level 3. Met up with Amanda's and Charlotte's online friends, Yeezi and Pingguo. They went to AMK for dinner while i came home.

I thought i'd be wanted at home at sucha special day so i came home to eat dinner. See, where to find such a caring daughter?!!??!
Thought that there'd be hugs and wishes and presents and all... But no. Too bad, andrea. You're still too undeserving of random presents of hugs from your parents anyway.
Uhhhh whatever.

Over dinner, my parents were saying. "Your results so good, can go science, medicine, mathematical courses leh. Why don't you go there instead of fashion? You can take these and get a diploma in these. While you take weekend fashion classes. Or you take fashion diploma after you get this diploma."

WHAT THE?
SERIOUSLY?
I have wanted to do fashion designing since Sec 2, now last minute want me go business/medicine/doctor/what?! WHAT??????? HUH????

Haha anyway. I have 12 choices. I put fashion as one, and these weird looking biomed/science/business as last few okie? I need to fill up space anyway... And can make you happy also.
Two birds with one stone! Hooray! Great Idea! I wont get into biomed/science/business course anyway!!!! Because i would just slot into fashion. Yay. I got better than COP mah.
Fashion COP is 15.
I got 13.
Minus two will be 11.
4 points difference! Can one!
If competition really too damn tough, at least i get into New Media. Republic poly! Not bad. Plus their COP 22. CONFIRM plus chop and guarantee get in wan.
Okay why i writing all this lol.

Am i being complacent or proud..................
Sorry lah. It's a bit, like.. Kind of, like normal for me.........
Yeah.

I look forward to my future, i'm a step closer to my dream.
Oh dear God please guide me <3

ciao my beautiful stalkers. love you.
p.s.: looks like the 'god of laziness' got lazy at making me lazy today.
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Interested in this magical tuition of mine, that made me get such a good score in O levels? I introduce to you! Because i usually share good things that i know of! (unless got competition wtf)


I go to GOODNEWS Learning School @ Thomson. There are other branches, like Kovan and Beauty World Centre. If you want, i bring you to the Thomson branch introduce you to the bewtipul teachers there. I don't mind(unless im not feeling lazy). Here's their website. Go sign up.
If you say that Andrea introduce you to the tuition centre you could get a discount! :D
Expensive fees are worth it because you literally buy a good O level score. That's what it feels to me right now LOL.


Of course, you can't just go tuition and expect good results okay?! PLEASE AH. Self study. Listen in class. Do your homework. Do your revision. Study late nights. But do NOT study the night before your Os because thats fucken suicide. For humanities, record yourself speaking the notes and replay. Replay, replay, replay. My secret trick. Play right before you sleep, and you'll wake up with it ringing in your mind. Play it on the way to school. While you're watching the tele. Yes, that's what i did, that's how hardcore i was. Do it. It's worth it. Because i will might do it again.