lazycrazy

I seriously, seriously think that something is wrong with me.

I cannot, for the life of me, actually imagine myself having a boyfriend. No really, i mean a real-life-boyfriend. Sure I fangirl about all these cute/hot guys online but that's that. I can't actually visualize myself getting it on with some singaporean guy. I can't imagine going to his house or coming to my house, i cant imagine eating with each other's families, i cant imagine actually wanting to bed him unless he's really hot. But maybe that's because my standards are far too sky-rocket high. Maybe i'd never get married. And if he's really that hot i think i'd feel so insecure i'd just die. So insecure.

Which makes me think, am i really lesbian? I don't think i'm any more lesbian than i hate guys though...(wtf is with this sentence)
I don't even like lesbian porn. Can't watch it. No wait, i do like guys. Omg i am so conflicted. I don't like guys, i like guys. I don't like girls, i like girls.

What type of gay is this??
I have to be more specific.

No no no, i have to be more focused on my assignment and not type shit that i over-think about ._.

I think i have to be more self confident. Ummm i miss dance, i miss my abs too, thanks.